Well... This isn't an easy post to make. It's always such a fun and incredible feeling getting to share with y'all how well I'm doing on this journey... But it's rough and kind of scary to share the moments in which I fall short. **Warning, this probably gonna be long. Sorry.** 😔
Sunday I got possibly the worst news in my life to date, I knew it was coming and I know it's for the best, but I lost someone very important to me and that's never easy.
I've been relying really heavy on the gym and some of my close friends and family because my mental health has been at an all time low... However, I'd been really proud of how well I was doing not falling back into my emotional eating while dealing with this loss....
But today was especially hard on my for some reason and I caved... I ate about 700 calories in cheap gross cookies, that only served to make my stomach upset. 😖 I'm telling you this because this account is supposed to hold me accountable and this is real. I didn't take pics of them because I wasn't even thinking, just eating and when it occurred to me what was happening, I was ashamed. But, I can't just hide it and pretend these small setbacks aren't a part of my journey. They definitely are.
That, however, is all they get to be, a PART, not the END. I still have the rest of the day to make better choices and to keep making those better choices into tomorrow. Thanks to some of the incredible support I have in my friends and family I've been reminded of that more than a few times. 💚 And it's the biggest difference in this time compared to every other time I've tried to lose weight. There is no stopping or giving up, so their can be no failure.
If you took the time to read all of this... Sorry I ramble and thank you for the love and support that you show by being with me on this journey. I love you all! ❤💛💚💙💜 When you're down, there's nowhere to go but up.