Today I hold my daughter closer than ever, I thought last night was going to be my last. My anxiety had gotten so bad to the point I was dizzy, my heart was beating so fast and hard, I was trembling, and I was miserable. I said a prayer for it to all go away, (12 hours straight of this) I tried to distract myself with a show, sewing (made an entire costume), and I had to constantly kick my foot in hopes that not thinking about these feelings would give me some relief or help it go away. I tried several times to fall asleep and I couldn’t I would get panic attacks the second my body starts to fall asleep (because of a panic attack disorder in my sleep that I have had since I was 18). Yes, a lot of people have anxiety, a lot of people have different levels of it! This is MY story. I am strong, I have been through so much trauma and came out being a new person. I am proud of who I became and I am so thankful that my prayer was answered and I was able to fall asleep, wake up, and get to hug and love on my baby again after one of the worst nights of my life. I won’t ever take that for granted. If you ever need to talk, I’m here for you. 🤗