Today mark's a first for me in a very long time. #storytime
When I was at my lowest point in my life, #depressed and filled with #suicidalthougts , I was desperate to do anything to distract myself. I was trying to create something i would be proud of and I did a bunch of different things. Working out, regulating my sleeping patterns from nocturnal to normal, creating a routine to prove to myself I could #achieve something and prove the thoughts wrong.
I rationalised that the only way I could truly give myself #purpose would be to follow my #ambition and #dreams of doing what I loved. And so, I started creating different designs in different #media styles. Unfortunately I would move on from design to design without finishing it. This caused me to continue to spiral in and out and nothing got better for a while.
I decided to put an end to it and start a fresh chapter that just maybe, could help inspire someone going through what I went through.
I decided that I was going to finish/ adapt and refine old designs I did at that point.
As for the original piece, I will leave it unfinished as a constant reminder of where I was and how far I've come.
#Poscapens , size 0.2/0.3/0.7 white black and gold.
I have started a newer version that is similar to the original that I will finish in memory and it will also do different versions of my adaptation.
But for now, I am proud to say this is where I was and and this is where I am now.
Still #struggling time to time but I am a lot #stronger than i once was.
#spraypaintart #gettingoverdepression #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #penart #motivation #storytelling #dreamjob
Thank you for taking the time to read this.
It means more to me than you could ever imagine.
#justforhumans