Day 3! WoW! The most profound days of my 53 years. I still have 2 left. I am a very changed human being in more ways than I could have imagine. ⠀⠀
I totally immersed myself into the training and into the world of Autism. The deep understanding I have of Summer is a game changer
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I have thrown all caution to the wind and put myself out there in every way this week. I have listened with a set of ears I didn’t even know I had. I have done every exercise both physical and mental, with complete abandon. ⠀⠀
I have experienced and felt the anxiety and frustration Summer goes through daily. I have felt a small part of the overwhelming and annoying barrage of overstimulation and mis-understanding she experiences every second of her everyday in the “real” world. ⠀⠀
I have bared my soul, shared my deepest fears, and cried at the microphone as I told 41 strangers from all over the world of the guilt I carry with me everyday for not being stronger and not listening to my innermost self when she got that MMR shot and ultimately, I have been carrying around the guilt that I robbed my daughter of her best life. I was supported, clapped for, hugged and understood and I left all that guilt right there in that chair, in that room. ⠀⠀
Today, I spent almost 5 hours with Raun K. Kaufman and 6 other “parents of verbal children”. It was incredible!!! I learned about the skills I need to help Summer overcome and the skills that Summer needs to overcome. I learned new and exciting techniques that I can’t wait to get home and incorporate into our lives. I learned that there is hope and a path for healing and curing her! And, I have a deep belief that this will be our outcome! ⠀⠀
I received answers to all of my questions. I see the bigger picture not only for Summer, but for me too. I feel refreshed and renewed, focused and on fire! I have a new calling that God has put on my heart. I need to help others go through this experience too and in the right time, after I get my beautiful baby girl rocking and rolling. I want to help bring the Son-Rise Program to others and, I will. But first... Summer is calling me!