May 26th 2017. This day. 2years ago. The doctor told me that I was sick. Honestly, I knew it. The lump in my neck for over a month said it, before any doctor or exam. It wasn't a surprise at all but in the bottom of my heart I had hope to not listen those words..."you have cancer". I just remember to answer without any tear "ok...what I have to do now?". I just face it with all the strength that I could find in me (if I there was any left) that day. Unfortunately, I had to deal with it and there was nothing I could do about it. Outside the doctor's office, I cried a bit and then clean all my tears and walk through the corridor ready to fight!! That day, I decided to face everything with a smile and focus on the important things of my life... the cancer that I needed to kill but, mostly, the moments and the people around me. I changed my doctor and went to a specialized oncology institute, to start the treatments as soon as possible. I was Hodgkin lymphoma stage 3a and less than one month after find out, I was starting my treatments.
This photo, is from a festival and was taken 2 days after my first treatment. I asked the doctor if I could go and he told me that there wasn't any problem because my imune system was ok at that time, but probably couldn't make it due to chemo secondary effects. Guess what, I went! I coudn't eat much, so I basically ate ice creams and bread but I made it, saw all the concerts and had so much fun. I felt like I had to enjoy it as much as I could.
From that day, I try to do it always, pushing myself too much sometimes, but live like never before, take the best of everyday, more positively and trying not to lose any opportunity to be happy just because... isn't always easy, sometimes the smile its a fake one and it's okay, but in those days I push it harder... 'cause you never now 🍀💃 in the end...I'm grateful for what cancer taught me! #beginningoftheend #try #happiness #happy #smile #goodthings #cancer #cancerresearch #hodgkinslymphoma #hodgkinslymphomafighter #lymphomaclub #lymphomafamily #lymphomaresearchfoundation #lymphomasociety #fightinggames #keepfighting #fightingcancerforkids #researcher #researcherlife #cancer