Today is Saturday. Saturdays are for wedding. One of these Saturdays... for wedding right? Take your time, no rush, no pressure, no influence. Make sure is what you want. But in case you know you want it and know the time is right and now, don't forget to invite us to help in chopping rice, chicken and coke😂😂😂 very important. #Saturdaysareforweddings #diaryofawidow #zibiahspeaks #gratefulheart
My little family 💕girls quarters. In our home ,we pray, we dance,we smile,we laugh,we love. Foreva grateful I do not have rights to the music playing in the background #diaryofawidow
Happy Mother's Day to all amazing mothers. So today I was told Happy Mother's Day by my girls. And immediately they said that I knew the next thing is "let's celebrate " but told them they are suppose to do it for me😂😂😂 as sharp mother wey I be, Micole : what do you like or which place do you want to go to? Me: I like you and the place you want to go is where I want Micole : let's go to Bridge park or Van O Me: with whose money? Them: just use your money. 😂😂😂😂😂. Anyways grateful to be a mother. A proud mother at that. And yes I ordered something/meal for the first time and that's Abacha (don't know if the spelling is right) from popcicles_bakehauz to step down, is good to try new things. Happy Mother's Day to me. #zibiahspeaks #mothersday #proudmother #diaryofawidow #graciousGod
#voiceofagrievingsoul #sheismrsmlungu #diaryofawidow May I encourage us [ you and I] there is no need to pretend everything is fine when it is not. There is no need to be hard on yourself whilst grieving because other people have it worse. Just understand that this is your grief. I believe it is good and right to express to the Lord how we truly feel Do this...⤵️⤵️ Share it with the Lord. He can handle it with you! #Lalelaaaaa sthandwa sikaKhuls God is good and desires good for me and you (Please read Psalm 145). I love you! Blessed Morning it's 7h07am here!
#SleepingPill The whole story is about a God that won’t give up. Even when there are ups and seriously downs⤵️⤵️ He never leaves... ! #Ngimbonile #Ngiyamati #DiaryOfAwidow #TheCoastIsClear angitsi...
The look on your face when your small girl comes to you with "mummy do you know my boyfriend " me 😯😯😯🙄🙄🙄 then in a second several thoughts came to mind😂😂😂😂. Hey calm down and answer the innocent girl's question 😂😂😂😂. And I said no, she called a boy's name in her class and went further to say she also have a girlfriend (me in my mind before nko) this girl don't even know what is running through my mind. The impression or myth we have when we hear girlfriend or boyfriend 😂😂 will still not go away. But that's how some of us are to simple innocent questions 😜😜😜😜 #Zibiahspeaks #Diary #Diaryofawidow #graciousGod
I found this picture yesterday while I was looking for pictures for my daughter’s birthday. I know I’ve done really well generally in life since my husband died 2 years ago. But this picture hit me hard and I just wanted to share with you. I miss the beach and I miss him. We had a lot of fun in our life together. Many of you knew him in the flesh, but many of you didn’t. He was a wonderful guy to spend a lifetime with. And life is still pretty wonderful now too, but sometimes sad and lonely. I just wanted to share that. #deathhappens #diaryofawidow
Sometimes we make choices believing that it will make us happy or be part of the things that makes us happy. Sometimes it could be irrational decisions and let our emotions influence our choices. So the other day I was holding my phone, saw something funny that someone posted 😂😂 unknown to me that my observers (my girls) were watching. The next thing she said was "mummy is it alert? "😂😂😂 like I don't have any reason to laugh or I hardly laugh except for credit alerts😂😂😂 I looked at her, in my head I was trying to process what just happened or why she said that. Then suddenly it occurred to me. To be continued... #proudmother #diary #diaryofawidow #graciousGod
So it's a teachable moment for me and as intentional parent, we were watching a movie on my phone with them girls😂😂😂 at first was skeptical cos was contemplating if is age appropriate but later shoved it off and allowed them watch. Got to a part where someone prayed (in a dream) for a loved one who was about dying and the person was revived. My gals: so you mean prayer is the key to everything Me: yes Gals: so why did we not pray to God to forgive my daddy, the other "why did I not collect mic and ask everyone to pray that kind of prayer? Me: people prayed, but is not every prayer that will be answered the way we want. Gals: I wish we did something or even try that day. Me: yes we did our best Gals: maybe you did not pray well Me:😂😂😂😂 Even as adults we most times want God to do our bidding or answer our prayers according to the way we want but it doesn't work like that. It's difficult to understand the ways of God but we pray for better understanding. #diary #diaryofawidow #intentionalparenting #zibiahspeaks
Today is our Indian wedding anniversary... Five years ago, you held my hand in yours and walked me down to the soft, silvery white sands of the beach. The sun burnt bright, luminating the air around us. The gentle waves of the turquoise ocean caressed the white sand, as though they were old lovers reuniting. You were there in your white kurta, standing tall and proud. Your eyes pierced into mine and you smiled knowingly. I was there beside you, dressed in a vibrant red sari, the gold embroidery glistening in the rays of the golden sun. And the love, oh the love that echoed deep in our hearts as our footsteps mirrored each others, carefully taking steps around the sacred fire. With each step we took, we smiled at each other, your hand guiding me through each vow. We went around the fire seven times and swore to love and be with each other, not only in this lifetime but every lifetime. We took our final oath as the sun slowly set over the ocean behind us. The calm embers of the fire slowly began to cool down as our love for each other burnt even brighter. We were in it forever. Perhaps the ocean knew. Perhaps the sky knew. Perhaps the sun knew what was to come - that in two years from this point, we would be fighting for more life together. Never did our vows mean as much to us, as they did then. It was never until death do us part. It is beyond my love. You are my heart and I am yours. You are the ocean and I am the sand, we met and united and then got pulled away. It's almost like the world knew, and that is why our love burnt so bright and always will until we meet again. #wordsofawidow #diaryofawidow #youngwidow #widowedandyoung
I walked to town. First to @hannafordmkts for a steak! Thanks for having a steak for sale at $6.99/pound! And @sanpellegrino_us for my special Vakentines meal later. Then I stopped at @blue_jay_coffee_ for a coffee date with myself! Yay! Happy Valentine’s Day! #diaryofawidow
Good morning! Happy Valentines Day! For me that means I wear purple all day. It’s very cold all day! I usually do fine with just beef butter bacon and eggs. I quit decaf coffee and butter for the month of February thinking that the heberdon cyst in the first knuckle of my first finger would feel better and my blood sugars would be better. So far the only thing that has happened in the first 14 days of the month is that I have cravings! Cravings for what? Chocolate mostly. The first couple of years I was carnivore I let myself eat stevia sweetened and completely unsweetened cacao occasionally. Then I just quit making and buying it. I quit stevia about 6 months ago. I thought about going and buying a ribeye steak, but I will probably just act like it’s any other day. #t1dcarnivore #diaryofawidow
Good morning! It’s way past time for this post! Almost 10 o’clock. I’ve spent a little too much time on my other job of being the social media for my husband’s Artist account @dennisperrinfineart . I recently started finding photos on his old phone and air dropping so I could post on his account. Sometimes I get caught up in nostalgia looking at old photos of our life together. This morning it was simply that I was looking for a particular painting for a particular post I had in mind. Have a look at his account you might learn something about me that you didn’t already know. My other job used to be as an artist model. And if you ever want to learn to paint think about taking an online okie ting course from theperrinmethod.com It way past time for another walk! #t1dcarnivore #diaryofawidow
Good morning! What a fun day I’ve got planned. Book club in town right after breakfast, walking with Jasper in the stroller! Pork roasting in the oven while I’m gone and hoping to make pulled pork when I get home. I’ve never made pork roast or pulled pork. I’ve thought for years that grocery store pork was too inferior, and pork makes me insulin resistant and needs more insulin than I’m used to giving. But I’ve never tested this theory. And when I saw the meat for $.99 per pound I realized it was time. What else? I’m painting in the afternoon because I’m still doing the STRADA easel change. Plus I’ve got 2 really good books to read in between all the other fun stuff. Oh did I mention that the book club is at a coffeehouse? @blue_jay_coffee_ and then I’m walking over to Lewiston Library to return some books and see if they have the new book for my book club! So much in one day! #diaryofawidow #t1dcarnivore #pulledporkwithjustsalt
Good morning! I woke up a little high, took my regular walk with Jasper, witnessed a beautiful sunrise and then I thought it would be awesome to go eat at @jbiz331 @duboiscafe , it would be nice to see my son, Jamie today since it’s the 2 year anniversary of his dad’s death. I’m so proud of Jamie and his cafe! He does such a good job there! And the hollandaise is the absolute best ever! And his poached eggs are perfect! We miss you Dad! @dennisperrinfineart #diaryofawidow #t1dcarnivore #hollandaisesauce
Good morning! Get my hair in a braid today. Sometimes, even though it looks good down, it get caught up in all my layers and end up getting tangled so much. It is time for a trim and just a reminder of how much I miss my husband who cut my hair for the last 40 years! Longer really. It been almost 2 years. I’m trying to focus on how much I have learned in this time, but the sadness of missing him is creeping in! My hot water with breakfast feels warm and healing and I’ll have decaf later while I am painting. #t1dcarnivore #diaryofawidow
Good morning! Today is August 26. My beloved husband abd father of my kids and PawPaw to my grandchildren Earthly Birth Day. It was a day that we celebrated how fortunate we all were to have such a giving, sweet, fun and wonderful human in our lives. Today I am celebrating the blessed and amazing life we shared. When Dennis died I assumed that I would hear from him constantly, but it hasn’t been that way at all, or at least not in the way I had assumed. I know he would be happy that I’m having such a wonderful life and that I feel so blessed by all the fun things happening in my life! I had never imagined that I’d be doing this alone. But every day is a blessing that I get to be here in this amazing world. Thank you to all my friends and family who bless me with your kindness and well wishes! 💜 I love you all! #widowhood #diaryofawidow #t1dcarnivore
Hello friends and family! I just thought I’d make a post so that you all know I’m okay. It is the most profound loss I have ever suffered. And I’ve seen more than my share of death of people I love. This loss is different. And I’d try to explain it but there is just absolutely no way to . Emotions are all over the place from one moment to the next. I am beyond thankful to be surrounded by so many people who love me! Today’s devotional is a good reminder for me as I navigate what life looks like without my Dave. I may not be posting much, I may seem to retreat a little for awhile….but just know that I know God’s got me! I’ll be returning to work with a modified schedule in another week! Thank y’all so much for your love! For all the texts, messages, calls, etc….I am so blessed to be surrounded by such amazing people. #anewjourneybegins #diaryofawidow
Happy Father's Day to all of the wonderful fathers, father figures, fathers to be, fathers in heaven, and fathers with children in heaven. I'm so lucky to have been blessed with an incredible father who gave me the strongest foundation to become who I am today. Growing up in this house, the rules were strict, but the reasons for the rules were always logical and always explained. Our parents took a lot of time to instil our culture and values into us from a young age, even more so because we grew up in a non-indian area. Growing up, who doesn't fight with their siblings? I remember very well that the 3 of us would fight unforgivingly. All stubborn to the core (the Vyas genes run strong). But we were always told very clearly, that whatever happens in life the people who we will always be able to rely on the most are within these 4 walls, and the people who will love us the most are within these 4 walls. It always used to sound extremely silly, unfair, and quite frankly annoying. Especially when the "person who loved me the most" had just punched me and taken my toy 🙄 But there was a method to the madness. I stand here today, widowed, heartbroken, and a single mother. But my brothers have never ever let me fall, nor have they left me behind. We are how we are today because of the upbringing we have had. My dad is one of my closest friends. We argue so often because we are far too similar; both of us are way too head-strong! But we both also have the same cheeky personality and outrageous sense of humour 🤭. Dad may be one of the most strict and principled people I know, but for me, he's my mate. And he has the SOFTEST heart. His heart broke when my world came crashing down, and to this day I know he tries his hardest every single day to do the most for me and my child so that we can have a good life. My son has 2 fathers in this house as well as a grandfather. And he feels the love from them as equally as the other kids do. Life is full of twists and turns, but I'm grateful for these incredible men in my life. They are the MOST amazing fathers and have never EVER let me down. Happy Father's Day, I love you guys ❤️ #fathersday #diaryofawidow
I read somewhere that once a woman gives birth, it takes around 18 months for her body to recover, and roughly 2 years until she starts to feel 'normal' again. Sometimes, I dismiss just how much I've been through. I say it so nonchalantly, "I'm navigating widowhood alongside motherhood." But I'm literally navigating WIDOWHOOD alongside MOTHERHOOD. My kid isn't even 2 years old yet. I'm still in the thick of it. Not only am I just getting by, but I'm killing it. I'm trying so damn hard every day. I'm putting myself out there, trying new things, and pushing myself at every opportunity to be an achiever. All of this is on top of my 9-5. Seriously, Duls, you're a legend mate. Don't ever forget it. You've got this, babe ❤️ #diaryofawidow
Her ❤️ speaks🙏 Ladies night PJ party last night was a blast🙌 fun fun fun, educational, motivational and informative 👏 big ups to the ladies and the guys for their male perspective 👏 #herheartspeaks #ladiesnight #diaryofadivorcee divorcee #diaryofawidow
#sheismrsmlungu #ButNow #diaryofawidow #WhenGodIsInYourStory Sleep Tight! Malelane Mpumalanga was anointed Thank you, Fikile Mamambals Ma-jobe, for hosting us
#diaryofawidow #griefjourney #MrsMlungu We live in a “look good – feel good” culture, And this may lead us to miss the point that a “God culture” is all about “being good – doing good.” #Ngiyandlula #picoftheday PrincessP
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#DiaryOfAwidow When someone says "You are not good enough* #Respond by *I AM more than ENOUGH! #griefawareness
#DiaryOfAwidow .. Yes, it’s a new year. Maybe the last year was not what you hoped it would be. Perhaps you are not where you thought you would be now.. But that’s okay. Take a deep breath, close your eyes and remember that your story isn’t over. You have so much still to do and become. Turn the page. Start a new chapter... #TheCoastIsClear
#DiaryOfAwidow #mrsmlungu #griefandloss You become "that person" people stare at in the supermarket. For months after my husband died, I didn't want to leave my house. I felt like the whole world was watching me. It's as if what happened to you is what everyone else is afraid of, so they just stare and pray they won't become you one day. That moment you are wearing an outfit that says something is missing as it is part of #twinship and Mark 5vs 30 At once Jesus realized that power had gone out from him. He turned around in the crowd and asked, “Who touched my clothes?” #griefawareness #widowshelpingwidows #divorcedlife
Merry Christmas 🎄 ❤️ This Christmas was harder than I expected. It took me a little bit by surprise. But that's ok. It's all OK. Thank you all for your continued support and love. Thank you to my amazing family and friends for sticking by me through my difficult days and moods. And boy can I get moody. I love you guys ❤️ #merrychristmas #diaryofawidow #griefjourney #griefawareness
Thank you to @ray_mcgeorge for making this beautiful tribute to @dennisperrinfineart 8-26-1950 —-11-13-2021. Today marks a year without him. P.S. These are not Dennis’s brushes! Always wash your brushes! #dennisperrin #diaryofawidow
I miss hanging out with him. Today is Friday. Sunday it will be a year without him. I am so grateful for our time together. But I really miss him! #imisshim #widowforayear #diaryofawidow
Virginia Wolfe once asked "how many people turned to a pen because they were afraid to pull the trigger?" I remember as a young teenager, distrauggt, angry, afraid, full of resentments, and in reality, simply wanting to be SEEN and LOVED.... writing became an escape. In many, (perhaps too many,) of my mad, poetical scribblings, I died. While many see that type of writing as depressing , unnecessary, and even "selfish" , i believe that had i not had an outlet to explore the darkest and ugliest part of me, i may not have made it. By killing myself on paper, i killed just a little of the pain. And little by little, i saved myself. Acting too, was a HUGE outlet...a way to explore feelings that i couldn't understand in myself, through the mask of a character. Unfortunately, Ms. Wolfe did not survive her demons and she did succumb to suicide. But, the battle she spoke of is Real. Most of those who are truly committed into the arts, are so, because it is an outlet for our own pain. Hopefully, more of us survive and use art to spread awareness and encourage empathy. #art #hope #fightingdemons #mentalhealthawareness #artinspiration #keepgoing #thoughtoftheday #yourstorymatters #itisntoveryet #writing #artheals #poetry #explore #expression #tothineownselfbetrue #journaling #diaryofawidow #painends
Rejection. Scarce a person will escape it. At some point in our life, we all experience it, or we PERCEIVE that we are experiencing it. A broken relationship, lost job or promotion, another invite-lacking inbox, or, the most disturbing for me, silence. The sting of nothingness. So then, we create otherness in our assumptions, conclusions and ruminations until we are convinced we have suffered Rejection and possibly multiple other offenses. There is a quote that i shall butcher, but in essence it says that sometimes God has to take things away from you in order to clear a space for something new. Maybe, that is a better view of Rejection and, loss in general. Something new is coming. And being designed and orchestrated by the only one who will never reject or forsake you. #hope #hisway #keepgoing #diaryofawidow #rejection #perception #faith #itisntoveryet #journaling #thoughtoftheday #widow #perserverance #holdonpainends #beyourownhero #trust
I read prayers frequently, and sometimes I begin to pray and then before I realize it, it’s a prayer for a future spouse, and I stop myself. I stop myself because I think to myself how could I ever pray for another. But then I think about spending the rest of my life alone, and I get very emotional. Chuy is the most amazing, wonderful husband I could have prayed for that God sent me. I know that couldn’t be with anyone for a long time, but it’s such a conflicting feeling. A friend told me not to too long ago, “B, Chuy is going to send you someone, because he knows what a wonderful wife you can be.” I sat in awe because I don’t know if I was more beside myself that they had said that or if it was because I agreed with them. Everyone I know who talks to me means well, it didn’t upset me at all. So I will replay these words in my head, “He loved you so much B, everyone could see it” and he does, I know it. ❤️ #diaryofawidow #chuymysweetie
Yesterday I made myself a decaf americano and served it in my husband’s favorite mug. I was in the mood because I had just watched a theperrinmethod.com Genius Circle video of him painting an Asian Ginger Jar with a very similar pattern. Made me sad. I’m mostly ok, but sometimes I’m sad and sometimes I’m lonely. Then I cooked my burger and beef fat trimmings and I felt pretty good. This was the first coffee for several days. I didn’t have any reaction that I know of. Thank you to my friends on FB and Instagram for the support and friendship. #t1dcarnivore #diaryofawidow
Tarnished Spoon and Stacked Cups 9x12” oil painting. I took my time with this painting. Dennis and I bought these lovely cups at a vintage shop in downtown Portsmouth NH @closetteboutique I did the value map Friday, the block in yesterday and the refining today. I’d been thinking on it for several days. I used the Perrin Method taught by my husband @dennisperrinfineart I learned a lot watching him paint and filming all of his courses at theperrinmethod.com . He may be gone but I felt him in this process. #deadartists #diaryofawidow #oilpainting #stilllifepaintings I love my coffee paraphernalia.
Yummy 1/3pound burger with butter and beef fat trimmings for lunch. I started a new painting this morning so I’ll get back to it after my nap. If you like my stories you might want to follow my husband’s account @dennisperrinfineart , he died last November making me a widow, I’m sure many of you already follow him. He was a great painter and I’ve been tell stories about his painting, flower still-life’s and figure paintings. I played the figure and the muse. I think the stories are fun, you might enjoy them. #deadartists #diaryofawidow #t1dcarnivore
Good morning! Today I am working on getting more boxes unpacked, enjoying my Sunday and most definitely getting my studio set up so I can start painting this week! Big day! #bigday #t1dcarnivore #theartistslife #diaryofawidow
Spider burger for lunch! 6 ounce beef burger patty and 4 slices bacon with butter of course. Earlier I walked down to the river with Rosetti for some extra steps and I found water lilies and suddenly I remembered what today is! August 4th is my 43rd anniversary, or it would have been. And my husband, @dennisperrinfineart who died last year, had painted maybe a hundred or more beautiful water Lily paintings! This made me really sad! #diaryofawidow #eatbutter #baconburger #t1dcarnivore
A day after he passed was the original closing date for our home. He had already spent weeks remodeling it. It'd be hard to get him to come home some nights to eat and rest, "I'll be done in a minute, my baby, finishing up this project!" My heart instantly went into a panic feeling like we'd be losing yet another thing. Seeing my church family, and community, come together with their ideas/help/support to make this happen....I've truly never felt so blessed. I feel..so undeserving of all of the love He gives me. This wouldn't have happened without God. I praise Him for continuing to be so close to my kids and I 🙌 Today is a happy, yet extremely sad day for me. I want my husband here. To celebrate life with. But I know he's smiling down on us with his chunky cheeks so happy knowing we got our home. 🏡 🤍
02.07.2017 Our Saanji Night So young and in love, we thought we had the rest of our lives ahead of us ❤️ It was a beautiful night. #diaryofawidow
02.07.2017 Hope you're celebrating wherever you are Shyamy, miss you. Today would have been 5years. Just wasn't meant to be. #happyanniversary #diaryofawidow
Well ok A1c was 6.0 today. The amount of changes I’ve been going through and difficult situations in the last few months, I’m not shocked it’s higher than I would like. Right now the fact that the test procedure went perfectly, no mishaps and done all on my own, felt like an accomplishment! When my husband was alive I always needed his help, even when he was sick! Like many other things I thought I needed help! There were so many things I had no idea how to do! Getting gas, getting an inspection sticker, using online banking, driving to New York City and doing an at home A1c test to name a few! I’ll take it! #homea1c #diaryofawidow #learningnewthings Average blood sugar of 136mg/dl. Way too high! Goal 4.5 to 83mg/dl. I’d be really happy anywhere in the low 5.s or high 4’s! Acceptance!
This is exactly how it is. I’m forgetful, I get confused sometimes, and decisions are hard. All that came naturally has taken a diversion. “This can’t be my life” — #diaryofawidow
Breaks my heart when you have your off days. You’ve got this my @simmies.girl. We love and are so proud of you ❤️ #diaryofawidow #loss #stronggirls #instastory #instafam #rememberthegoodmemories
Good morning! Happy Saturday! I’ve had an amazing morning all before breakfast! A gorgeous sunrise walk, then driving to Cooper Spring. I got directions from @findaspring .com filled easy to find. Driving through beautiful country: Maine camps, small towns, gorgeous landscapes and farms. Cooper Spring runs through a vein of tourmaline and is very pure and energized by the gems. This spring runs very fast, faster than any spring I’ve ever been to! I filled 7 bottles! And I feel quite accomplished and rich in beautiful water! #springwater #mainesprings I passed @polandsprings resort and a place called Maine Springs! Quite a solo adventure! #soloadventure #diaryofawidow
🤍💐I completed womens grief therapy on Tuesday. What was intended for Abe made such an impact on me. I met some pretty wonderful women, all who are experiencing the same feelings I am with mom and Chuy. I know that I’m not alone, I have love and support from so many family and friends but to hear that others feel everything I feel on a daily basis was surreal. I’m so glad I met them.🤍💐 #diaryofawidow
Yummy leftovers! 1 flanken short ribs and some brisket, leftovers yum!!! And of course butter! I love the @lewisroadcreamery New Zealand butter, it’s almost as good and yellow as my local raw Jersey butter and just as tasty! #flankenshortribs #leftoverbrisket #diaryofawidow #t1dcarnivore
Good morning! Sunrise at Biddeford Pool with Rosetti on his birthday! My puppy is 11 today, he’s the sweetest and most loyal pup ever. I think he seems to miss Denny @dennisperrinfineart but he’s grieving and still living an awesome life, like me. I miss my man but I’m happy to be here living life. “Most people have no idea of the power of their thoughts. They do not realize that as they continue to find things to complain about, they disallow their own physical well-being.” @abrahamhickspublications I used to say, “if you complain, you get more of the same!” Same difference right? #t1dcarnivore #grieving #diaryofawidow
Butter bacon burger with @tillamook_cheese1 and a cute hand-me-down from my sister. This print is a departure from wearing only solids—- mostly black, white and purple. I keep looking down at the pattern and grey and being shocked! I guess it’s a part of my new life! #diaryofawidow #t1dcarnivore
I’ve published a new blog, A Life Changing Event: the Diary of a Widow. A blog that needed to be written before I could continue talking about health and food! I’ve got a link in my profile page link tree. Let me know what you think! My next blog will be all about my very different dentist experience. #healthblog #diaryofawidow
Just a simple burger with butter for lunch outside in the sunshine. ☀️ #t1dcarnivore #diaryofawidow
Good morning! It’s time for a walk in the sunshine! This morning my quite comes from @abrahamhickspublications If you are not feeling good or looking the way you want to look, it has a way of reflecting out into all other aspects of your life experience, and it is for that reason that we want to emphasize the value in bringing your physical body into balance and comfort and well-being.” I added butter in hopes of feeling better and I’m sure my walk will help. #diaryofawidow #t1dcarnivore
2 @twrgrassfedbeef Polish Sausages with @vitalfarms grass fed butter. A delicious lunch. Blood sugar was 55mg/dl so my lab will be monitor blood sugar and probably take half a unit R in an hour and a half and take another walk. That’s how it’s done! #t1disafulltimejob #t1dcarnivore And before you decide to follow everything I do, I miss get be dropping sausage and hot dogs because even though the seasonings are perfect and not too spicy, they are plants! But I’m not going totally off plants just yet. Coffee herb tea and a few spices until the end of my traveling for now! #t1dtraveler #t1dcarnivore #eatbutter #diaryofawidow
The Diary of a Widow! I’m soaking up the sun at the coffeehouse with a hot decaf americano! They know my order here and so does my phone! Here’s to figuring out life after your husband dies! I opened new insulins R and N yesterday and my body is thanking me. Carrying around my insulin in the heat here was definitely weakening the effectiveness of the insulin! Blood sugars are happy and do am I. Feels good! Make it a good day!!! “Life is about the management of energy, where you place your attention, is where you place your energy.” @drjoedispenza Do it! #t1dfun #diaryofawidow #coffeehouselove #bepositive
Good Morning! “Every time we have a thought, we make a chemical. If we have good thoughts, we make chemicals that make us feel good. And if we have negative thoughts, we make chemicals that make us feel exactly the way we are thinking.” – Joe Dispenza @drjoedispenza Today is a day that is thought of to be a day for couples to romance. For those of us who are not in a couple situation —- I am using this day to be kind to myself, to have positive thoughts of love toward myself, to appreciate my body for its service to me, to appreciate my heart and mind for sticking with this often scary place, and I appreciate self for always being ready to learn new things and ideas. LOVE 💗 💜💜💜💗💗💗💗 #positivethoughts #carnivorebreakfast #itsanewday #diaryofawidow #loveyourself
Good morning! Do you see that English Tea? I haven’t had caffeine for a really long time! I woke up tired this morning, unwilling to drink the hot water I’ve been enjoying! Found this Ahmed English Tea in @marthaandres cabinet and I’m enjoying the heck out of it, feeling a little guilty. My fingers will yell at me later. I always like to know why I feel the way I do—- the tiredness is probably a result of a day of higher blood sugar, or walking 5 miles a day since I got here, which is much more than I was walking in Maine. But I won’t dwell on it and I’ll get out there soon and walk in the sunshine on this beautiful sunny Sunday. A gratitude recitation on my walk will likely cure me! #diaryofawidow #t1dcarnivore Just had a realization—-today is 3 months since my husband became non physical and I miss his physical presence. Sometimes it’s just no fun at all! I’m grateful for all these fun new experiences and friends and my dear family, I really am! And I’m grateful for my on-line friends and all your support! Love y’all ! 💜🥓 #grief #griefispersonal
Supper last night. This is pretty much my favorite supper. Butter bacon burger. A few observations about my day and blood sugar. I loved all the amazing food at the carnivore women’s get together! It was all the carnivore food I don’t usually eat… see my post from earlier: a little chicken, pork and pork belly. For some very weird reason chicken and pork seem to raise my blood sugar and actually the same is true for many type one diabetics. It’s been guessed that it could have something to do with the different amino acid’s—— but then it just gets too scientific for my artsy brain and I stop trying to figure it out! Blood sugars have been high and I’m having to take extra insulin to manage it. TTYTT (to tell you the truth) I never enjoy this process! #insulinincrease #t1dcarnivore #t1dcarnivorewoes #diaryofawidow
Taking pictures is savoring life intensely, every hundreth of a second.-Marc Riboud #drivenlife #movingforward #onestepatatime #embracingvulnerability #selflovejourney #strongerthanmystruggles #bravesoul #hopefulheart #toughjourney #diaryofawidow #diaryofawidowsjourney
I got out early so I could get a hot decaf americano! Yum! And for my miles @havajavalassendas Took me a while to get the joke—-“Have a Java” “Can you accept the notion that once you change your internal state, you don’t need the external world to provide you with a reason to feel joy, gratitude, appreciation, or any other elevated emotion?”@drjoedispenza #havajava #morningcoffee #t1dcarnivore #diaryofawidow
I will never be afraid of moving forward despite the uncertainties that await my journey because not only I have God, I also have two angels watching and guiding me from the other side. #drivenlife #movingforward #onestepatatime #embracingvulnerability #selflovejourney #strongerthanmystruggles #bravesoul #hopefulheart #toughjourney #diaryofawidow #diaryofawidowsjourney