13 months. 13 months without your laugh, without your smile. 13 months since we were a whole family. 13 months since my heart shattered into a million tiny pieces and where scattered to the wind… some of those pieces are gone forever, but some I have managed to scoop back up and keep locked in a box on a shelf of my soul. 13 months since I felt your tiny, chubby hand in mine, since I picked you up and snuggled you close to stop your tears. 13 months without being able to share a meal, watch you and your brother play (or fight), or watch you learn something new. My heart both mends and breaks a little more each day. This life is so confusing. So many swirling emotions, so many thoughts and memories all packed into a single millisecond. Not one goes by where I don’t miss you. You deserved to have so many more seconds. I love you, sweet boy. So much. Forever. My precious Teddy Bear. 💔💔💔🧸💖 #toddlerloss #infantandtoddlerloss #grievingmother #itneverstopshurting #sudcawareness #missyouteddy
National Suicide Awareness is today. It’s EVERYday for those who have experienced it in some way. Suicide impacts everyone who was in your life FOREVER. If you think you are a burden, you are not. If you think you are weak, you are not. You are never alone. Asking for help shows how strong you are and is brave. You always matter to someone. Everyday I wish I had the opportunity to go back in time to do something different so we wouldn’t be here without you today. #suicideprevention #nationalsuicidepreventionmonth #988 #youareneveralone #askforhelp #bethere #helpisavailable #itneverstopshurting
How has it already been a week since I last held you? #soulmate #disneydog #shihtzu #shihtzuofinstagram #shihtzuofig #shihtzugram #lovemydog #mydogs #dogsofinstagram #dogsofinsta #itneverstopshurting
There is not a single day that goes by that we don’t think you! I’ll never be the same. But I see see and hear u everyday through us ❤️ miss you 🕊️ 😢 Louise Cottom #2yearsgone #itneverstopshurting #watchoverus
Mom. If only one more day was enough. If only I knew March 12th would be the last time I spoke to you, before that car accident ripped you from my life on March 13th…. I would’ve had so many questions answered. If I had one more day I would’ve asked for an instructional manual on how to navigate this life; not only without you, but on my own. If I had one more day I would’ve taken more videos with you. You were not just my Mom, you were my best friend, my confidant, my rock. • If only I had one more day, I would know one more day isn’t enough to prepare myself for the hole you would leave 💔 • #MyAngel #GoneTooSoon #NeverFair #MotherDaughter #ItNeverStopsHurting
Those that say time heals all wounds never lost their father. After 9 long years the wounds are just as deep, and just as painful. The longing to hear your voice is stronger than ever. Every post I write reminds me that I have to go through each moment without you by my side. I try so hard to be someone you can be proud of. I try so hard to push through the pain of life just so you can look down on me and say that's my daughter. I pray that God knows the angel he took away from me and is giving you in heaven what life couldn't give you on earth. You will always be the best of my life and I miss you so much. I love you daddy. #imissyoudaddy #daddysgirl #forevermissingyou #mydadinheaven #itneverstopshurting #ripdaddy #myheartwillneverheal
Life goes on. #grieve #loss #lossofalovedone #itneverstopshurting
At This time 3 years ago, I kissed you for the last time and let you go 💔🌈. Hugo, My little Guardian Angel, I still Think of you ❤️. #hugo #maxidansempirestateofmind #guardianangel #greatdane #granddanois #istillmissyou #3yearsanniversary #itneverstopshurting
Life after loss!!! #itneverstopshurting #missingyou #lifewithoutyouisntliving #kohltanstone
@desertgritmentalhealth #grief #griefjourney #healingisnotforgetting #healingisnotbetrayal #itneverstopshurting #griefisdifferentforeveryone #letyourselfheal #feelit #faceit #neverforget #personalgriefjourney #findyourpathingrief #donotgetstuck #love #gritontrack #californiamentalhealth #nevadamentalhealth #mentalhealthmatters #desertgritmentalhealth
6 years ago today you gained your wings. Since then I’ve silently suffered your absence. There are absolutely no words, no consoling, no nothing to ever make this better. Yea, you move on because you have to but I hold that pain and hurt every single day. I miss your daily calls, I miss you laughs, I miss when you use to surprise me. I miss you so much my papi. This wound will never heal 💔😭😔 #mypapi #now #myangel #broken #itneverstopshurting #myheartachesforyouinsilence #iloveyoumyking
They always put the blame on you, no matter what, even now they can't see what they did was wrong, and that means they will never change. So was it all worth it? If nothing changes?? 💔 #hewontchange #isittimetoletgo #domesticabuse #theaftermath #itneverstopshurting
A -33 degree temperature is not going to stop me from lighting a candle for you Babe…can’t believe it’s been 3 years today that I lost my ❤️ …RIP my Love…until we meet again. #itneverstopshurting #hugyourlovedones #nevertakeadayforgranted
#itneverstopshurting #momof6rayboyz #boymomlife #mamasgirl #missingyoumama #21years #gonebutnotforgotten
Today is the anniversary of sending Kera over the rainbow bridge. The 1st picture is one of her last happy looking pictures. The 2nd picture is literally the last picture that I got to take of her. Siri knew that Kera was leaving us soon. I'm glad that my original crew is altogether now but I miss them all every single day. #rainbowbridgepups #itneverstopshurting #kera #imissher #myprettyprincesskera #origionalcrew #memories
April 17th will always be the day I dread the most every year. It never gets easier and I’ve found the ones who says it does are either liars or never truly lost someone they’ve cared for unconditionally. Today daddy would have been 74. And I think of all the things he has missed on this earth. I wouldn’t bring him back to the sufferings he endured for years for anything. But I can’t help to wonder how Clyde and him would be together. I can’t help to wonder how things would be different or if they even would. I can still hear him say “Jake” with a hint of laughter when I was being silly. I can still hear his voice at random times. I see his face almost every night in dreams. Some good some not so good. I miss him terribly and this day, every year, brings back all the flooding memories and emotions. This is the face of what a broken heart looks like and a shattered soul torn in 2. #daddysgirl #alwaysdaddysgirl #griefsucks #itneverstopshurting #timedoesnthealallwounds #13years #stillfeelslikeyesterday #rawemotions #youdontknowhurt #untilhesgone #heartbroken #seintbeauty #seint #seintartist #untilwemeetagain
How do you fully enjoy something good that has come out of the most horrific experience in your life? I remember in the year after Mackenzie died I frequently found myself in situations I knew I would never be in if she had survived. It’s like life had taken on the most bizarre dichotomy. How do you enjoy something fully, if the only reason it is happening is your daughters death? I find myself in complete denial that Willa’s first birthday is approaching. Partly, it’s because she’s my youngest, my baby - and I’m not ready. But it’s also partly that Mackenzie never made it anywhere near this age. Willa most likely wouldn’t be here with us, in this family, in this situation if it wasn’t for Mackenzie’s death. I love her so so much. I can’t imagine not having her here. Not watching THIS beautiful, cheeky, mischievous wee human grow and learn day by day. I am so so so grateful I have Willa in our lives. Teaching us about what matters. About healing. She’s the ultimate good that has come out of the shittiest thing that has ever happened to me. #grievingmother #itneverstopshurting #neonataldeath #nzmama #joyinthesmallthings #babyloss
don’t want to remember this dreadful day but my heart can’t take the hurt and pain. Mi Papi, mi vida, la luz de mis ojos. I miss you more than words can express. I still need your phone calls. I still need your love and comfort. I still need you. It’s been 5 years and I still expect to see you walk thru my doors to surprise me. I miss your morning calls. You were suppose to be here, we had plans. I miss you soooo much my papi #sipmyking #needyousomuch #itneverstopshurting #myheartachesforyouinsilence #mypapi #nowmyangel
I don’t want to remember this dreadful day but my heart can’t take the hurt and pain. Mi Papi, mi vida, la luz de mis ojos. I miss you more than words can express. I still need your phone calls. I still need your love and comfort. I still need you. It’s been 5 years and I still expect to see you walk thru my doors to surprise me. I miss your morning calls. You were suppose to be here, we had plans. I miss you soooo much my papi #sipmyking #needyousomuch #itneverstopshurting #myheartachesforyouinsilence #mypapi #nowmyangel
Another season without her 😪 no matter what level@of success o reach, no matter how many accomplishments I conquer, no matter how many days/years pass.....I can’t help to think how it doesn’t feel as good without the hug of proudness that she would wrap me in in reaching each endeavor, each milestone that’s going to create the bright future for her littles #MySistersKeeper #OurJoyToTheWorld #HeySisterrrrrrrrrrrrr #ItNeverStopsHurting
One year ago today my housemate and friend Robbie died 💔 He was funny, and sarcastic, and brave, he always told us he was in the Port Talbot mafia, he loved game of thrones, and he loved whiskey until the night he had a bit too much and decided he didn’t. His death broke me a little bit for a little while. Forever grateful to all the amazing people who helped put me back together ❤️ Part of my life growing up under palliative care and being friends with so many amazing people with serious illnesses is that I’ve lost so many friends. It never gets any easier, it never stops hurting, and I never forget. Some people wonder why I’m friends with so many fellow poorly people when that friendship risks so much pain. Well, first of all, it’d be hypocritical af of me not to be open to knowing and loving someone who’s very unwell when every single person I’m friends with knows I could die any day myself. I’m always a bit in awe of the people who stick around despite that risk. And secondly? In the words of William Shakespeare; “it’s better to have loved and to have lost than to have never loved at all”. I’d rather get however much time I get knowing and loving a really awesome person, even though it hurts like hell when they die. The pain is worth it because of the joy we get to experience together. Grateful I got to know Robbie ❤️ #itneverstopshurting
6 years ago you left my life. I needed you most as a new journey was starting in life and I needed my best fur friend to get me through it. You needed something bigger from me that day...to say goodbye. I wanted to leave with you that day...I couldn’t imagine my life without you. You left a gaping hole in my heart, my brain, my soul and my EVERYDAY. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t look at you and l the pain, and smile that you even happened in my life. 12 years with you wasn’t nearly long enough...but you made room for some other amazing babies to walk into my life. It’s not a comparison, trade or replacement, but a learning experience that your exit from my life taught me. Thank you for being my partner, my best friend, my teacher, and my solace. I love you today just as much, and I’m a better person because of you. Thank you for carrying me through life for so long, being my shoulder to cry on and my focus when nothing made sense. Till we meet again my girl...I love you always♥️ #itneverstopshurting #shewasitforme #angelsinfur #grateful
HBD Queen 👑💖 . You told me to dream big 🎬 work hard 😰 play hard 🤪 and always write everything down (lists darling ... it’s all about lists😂📝) 💚 You admired my resilience & built my strength 🤗💜 You never stopped believing in me and never gave up on any of us 🧡 no matter what 🙏 I miss you everyday 💔 I hope I’m making you proud 🎭 Thank you for protecting me then, now and forever 🖤 . #grandma #granddaughter #chooselove #dreamer #happybirthday #missyou #itneverstopshurting #proud #hbd #protector #nan #makealist #dreambig #workhard #playhard #nevergiveup #actress #youwillmakeit #healingjourney
#loveyou #missyousomuch #beautifulgirl #rip #itneverstopshurting
October is Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Month. I’ll be posting on here all month long about loss related topics. I’ll be dedicating all my uploads on YouTube this month to my loss series and sharing the incredible stories of my fellow loss mamas and their precious babies. I’ll also be monetizing these videos (with midroll ads) so that I can donate my entire month’s earnings from October to CuddleCot fundraiser and/or the @starlegacyfoundation. My heart is heavy today, y’all. Like many others, I found myself engrossed in Chrissy Teigan and John Legend’s pregnancy of their third child. Hearing the news of their loss shattered me, but also seeing the backlash she is receiving online has rocked the loss community. That backlash is exactly why so many feel that it’s not safe to share their beautiful children and their stories. It’s not okay. I’ll speak more to this when I can gather my thoughts. Right now, I need to let this massive grief wave wash over me and let it take me where it will. Hang in there, Mamas. You are not alone. #stillbornstillloved #pregnancyandinfantlossawareness #mamagrief #itneverstopshurting
#ijustreallymissyou #itneverstopshurting #heartnsoul #myall #heartbreakingquotes💔
I can’t believe my beauty boy will be 21 on July 24th. A grown man! Jackie’s birthday week is hard for me because as excited as I am to celebrate my sweet guy , it’s also a painful reminder of the painful journey we’ve been on the last seventeen years. Jackie was a full term baby with no complications. For the first few years of his life, he was in the 100 percentile of growth and development. Then like a bad dream, a switch flipped and he spiraled into darkness. We all did!For me, it felt like he was abducted in the middle of the night and replaced by a child I didn’t know. He was never the same child and over the years continued to loose skills and become very sick. Everything he was doing like putting sentences together, playing, making eye contact, eating all kinds of different foods, being able to hold his spoon and feeling good! All of it was gone! All of these pictures were during that time, the time when we were just being a normal little family and he a normal functioning little boy. Through the years, he has endured and overcome so many challenges and continues to fight! He truly is a superhero and I love the fine young man he has become. But, I can’t sit here and say that I’m okay with what we lost, what he has been cheated out of. I would give anything for him to say mom or I love you. For him to never have another seizure , be able to eat more than five foods, to regain the motor skills he lost! I want him to have some sense of a normal life: a friends, a job, a partner, and freedom! One thing he does have is the love and support of his family. He is our hero, pure light in a dark world and I am blessed to be his mother. #thecrookedlittletable #westvirgina #autismawareness #mogantibodyassociateddisease #seizuressuck #itneverstopshurting
After over a year of very chronic back pain and numbness in my leg I finally have some answers as to why I’ve been hurting more than my normal. I got a MRI done of my back and it showed mild degenerative disc disease and a bulging disc in L4-S-1 of my lower back. The bulging disc is believed to be causing most my pain because it’s hitting my sciatic nerve and making it so I can barley walk some days. Physical therapy is seeing me more now to help me with the bulging disc so I can’t wait to see where I go with that! Please keep me in your prayers and good thoughts that we can fix this numbness through physical therapy. #degenerativediscdisease #backpain #endometriosis #endometriosisawareness #endowarrior #endosister #sciatica #sciaticapain #bulgingdisc #ouch #numbness #somuchpain #physicaltherapy #painrelief #motherhood #workingmom #essentialworker #backpainalldayeveryday #itneverstopshurting #istillsmile
Don't let the smile fool you, things have been hard lately. I spent most of yesterday in the beginning phases of an episode, I didn't wear my seatbelt at all, had black out periods throughout the day where I can't remember what I did, was super spacy, had miniature panic attacks and breakdowns over everything, and seriously considered driving the company car off this one cliff side in Malibu canyon because if I hit the guard rail at just the right angle I can roll the vehicle as its plummeting to bottom of the canyon. I never expected to live this long and I have a lot of anxiety because I don't really know what to do now that I am here. THIS is the face of Depression, of Bipolarism, of someone with Suicidal Ideology, it's not always sad depressing music and tears and it's not always easy to see and identify. #TheFaceOfDepression #HowDoYouHurtThatBad #HowDoYouGetThatLonelyAndNobodyKnow #Masks #MentalIllness #BiPolarism #Bipolar #Struggling #SurvivalMode #ItNeverStopsHurting #ItNeverGoesAway
You may be asking yourself why is this girl posting a picture of herself in her pajamas? There is more than meets the eye here. Those were my moms pajamas, and I just found them in the bottom of my dresser, I smiled and decided tonight I’ll wear them. As I slipped them over my head, I began to cry as the fabric passed over my nose, I got to smell my mom for the first time in a long time! (You can even see Luna smelling them behind me!) 💔 miss you mommy! 😭 #itneverstopshurting #missmymom #lifeofaphoenix #amazinghowasmellcanbringyouback
Memorial Day is everyday for some families. Enjoy your hot dogs. I’m listening to the rain, cross stitching and feeling sorry for myself. If your dad is still alive, love him hard. Tomorrow is not promised. Peace and blessings. God bless. And....LIVE FREE OR DIE. . . . . #memorialday🇺🇸 #livefreeordie #texasforever #freedomisntfree #notearsinheaven #ilovemycountry #spookbrat #goarmy #defenselanguageinstitute #imissyou❤ #kissmyforehead #tellmeajoke #istilldontgetwhyyoulovedthomashardy #impissedyourenothere #itnevergoesaway #itneverstopshurting #why #itsnotfair #thelordredeems #griefandloss #griefjourney #angerissuesmaybe #coldwarhistory #shalomadonai #didntevengettosaygoodbye #nomanleftbehind #forgivenessishard #donttreadonme
#tbt #throwbackthursday this month marks 2 years my baby girl Nollie passed away peacefully in her sleep while we were cuddling one fateful night! I will never stop missing her till the day I die! I know she’s in a better place with our ZEUS and knowing they’re both together is as comforting as it’ll ever get for me! I miss you pretty girl! ❤️💙🖤💜 #RIP #pug #pugs #puglove #puglife #pugsofinstagram #pets #dogs #animals #mansbestfriend #animalsoulmate #nolldoll #nollie #prettygirl #princess #daddysgirl #pnw #2years #itneverstopshurting #imissyou #iloveyou #seeyousoon #love
#momofangels #infertilitysucks #illnevergetoverit #itneverstopshurting
Parents of Infants PLEASE Invest In One Of These 🙏🏾 I Swear To God Had I Gotten One I Wouldn't Have SO Many Voids In My Heart Right Now 😞😢 #LLTanAlfred I miss you so much 💔🤦🏾♀️ #BabyAngel #MothersOfLostInfants #LifeAfterLosingAChild #EnternalGrief #Pain #CopingMechanisms #WhyMe #ItNeverStopsHurting
One day I will see you again mum... As always @charliemackesy is perfect . . . #oneday #whenyouloseaparent #losingyourmother #family #holdontight #love #familylove #mum #grieving #itneverstopshurting #imissyoumum #charliemackesy
What a difference 2 years can make. One 135lbs on my wedding day. One last Friday 175lbs, after 2 years of depression and guilt from losing Ginger and Liza in the first 8 months of my marriage. Still in counseling and working on finding the right antidepressants. But damn, if this isn't a slap in the face about how much I have lost myself, I don't know what is. #cantbelieveit #imagiantpieceofshit #itneverstopshurting #imissgingerandliza
Maybe in another life I could find you there Pulled away before your time I can't deal, it's so unfair And it feels And it feels like Heaven's so far away And it feels Yeah, it feels like The world has grown cold Now that you've gone away 🎶 'Gone away' - FFDP No words can describe how much I miss you💔 A&A #friesianhorse #friesenpferd #fjordpferd #fjordhorse #bestones #missingyou #onceinalifetimehorses #alwaysandforever #thelightofmylife #thankyouforthetimewehad #bestthingthatcouldhavehappenedtome #foreverinmyheart #howiwishyouwerehere #itneverstopshurting #loveisendless #neverstoplovingyou #nothingcompares2u #soulmates
🎶"Don't be mad if I cry. It just hurt's sometimes. 'Cause everyday it's sinking in, And I have to say goodbye all over again. You know, I bet it feels good to have the weight of the world off Your shoulders now. I'm dreaming of the day when I'm finally there with you. Save a place for me. Save a place for me. I'll be there soon. I want to live my life, just like you did. And make the most of my time, just like you did. And I wanna make my home up in the sky, just like you did. Oh, but until I get there.... Save a place for me."🎶 - Matthew West 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 #imissyoumom #iwishheavenwasntsofaraway #itneverstopshurting #iveaskedwhysomanytimes #godalwaystakesthebest #imissyoursmile #imissyourlaugh #youhavenoideahowmuchineedyouhere #iwillmakeyouproud #youaremystrength #iwillseeyouagain #saveaplaceforme
So it's been I think 3 weeks now hard to know when truthfully you think it's nothing more than a nightmare you will wake up from. My mother passed away, there's no way to say it but that way. I don't want sorrys or condolences. They get old real fast. Or maybe I'm still in the anger phase more than normal. Because nothings normal. But for anyone I haven't talked to in years, months, days or whatever. Do a favor for yourself tell people how you really feel Don't let a petty argument or a harsh word be left between you. Because it will fester in your heart and soul. And for anyone who goes " I'll do that this afternoon" I spoke to my mother 2:12 seconds before she was Gone had litterly just said I love you glad I did. But don't let shit wait or anything for that matter. I'll be going dark on socials for awhile just not feeling it don't know if I ever will again. Rember Tell people how you feel because 30 seconds from now might be the last chance. #sadtime #badnews #nightmare #itneverstopshurting #justgetseasier
In the kitchen with Jameson! One of the millions of things my sister @haliaaloha_93 has been deprived of doing with her keikis😔 #itneverstopshurting . . . Jameson’s winter break assignment was to make pancakes for his family. 🥞😋It was fun until he accidentally touched the pan trying to flip the pancake on his own🤦♀️Mmm who’s fault was that?🤔🤷♀️😬Oops! Guess I should have warned him to use the handle...my bad! But he’s fine, seriously very minor, no harm-no foul...although he probably won’t be chef’ing it up in the kitchen again anytime soon.💕 #2020GLAD
How I wish, how I wish you were here ❤ one year ago my world fell apart, I lost my most precious treasure. I miss you everyday my beauty, my once-in-a-lifetime horse, my soulmate, my best friend🌈 I love you so much❤ Antje ☀️16.06.2000-27.10.2018☀️ #friesenpferd #friesianhorse #missingyou #onceinalifetimehorse #soulmate #beauty #sunrise #itneverstopshurting #howiwishyouwerehere #loveisendless #foreverinmyheart #myprecious
I will tell you about the two horses that taught me everything I know today. My soulhorses or once-in-a-lifetime-horses, which is actually true..you will never ever get the same horse twice (even if it's the same breed). Every horse is so special in its own way and we have to appreciate all the time we spend with them, because time runs out so fast. Both of them passed away in 2018, three months apart. This was the hardest time of my life and I really thought I would never be happy again. They didn't want me to give up, so they send Leo to me and later Gunman too and I can say that I'm whole again❤ The hole they left can never be filled again, but a heart is big and there's room for more, as long as it is love that you let in😊 #youaremissed #soulmate #onceinalifetimehorse #itneverstopshurting #youleftaholeinmyheart #friesianhorse #fjordhorse #loveisendless #thankyouforthetimewehad #neverstoplovingyou
Using the dude filter on snapchat VS Justin. It's been 10 years since I've hugged him. #wemightberelated #itneverstopshurting #suicideisnotacureforpain
Thinking of my mom a little extra today on what would have been her birthday. Missing her terribly.❤️❤️❤️ . . . #happybirthday #grief #itneverstopshurting #mom #missyou
14år... 💔 ... 14år, det är hur länge sedan farsan tackade för sig och lämnade oss. Kan inte riktigt förstå att det gått så länge, jag saknar honom så enormt mycket. Sorgen har inte blivit mindre men det har blivit lättare att leva med den. . Satt och bläddrade bland alla mina foton och kunde tyvärr bara hitta detta foto som jag och han är med på samtidigt tillsammans. Det är lätt att vara efterklok och tänka att varför fotade jag inte lika mycket då som jag gör nu? . Det är svårt att förklara hur han var.. Han var en rätt svår och envis människa, vilket jag vet själv att det är sånt jag fått från hans sida. Han kunde även vara riktigt rolig, minns några ggr när han fick både mig och mina vänner att tokgarva åt knasiga saker som han kläckte ur sig. Han fanns alltid där fast på sitt sätt, även om det blev svårare för honom på slutet. . Han var absolut inte perfekt, men vem är det? Han levde med sina demoner, vilket kroppen hans tillslut inte längre kunde hantera. Han fightades ett liv med tung alkolism samt diabetiker. Kroppen hans sa tillslut tack & adjö och det fanns tyvärr inget som läkarna kunde göra. . Den 21 september 2005 så somnade min farsa in på Sundsvalls sjukhus. Jag satt vid hans sida och kan fortfarande känna känslan jag fick när sjuksköterskan sa -Nu somnar han in... Jag minns hur apparaten som var kopplad till honom stannade till. Jag ville förstöra rummet och allt runt mig, men lyckades samla mig. Fick låna telefonen för att ringa till min syster för att berätta de tråkiga nyheterna. Det var nog bland det jobbigaste jag har gjort. . Det finns så mycket frågor som jag aldrig fick besvarade. Så ta vara på tiden med era föräldrar, man vet aldrig när den dagen kommer då dom tas ifrån oss... . Jag saknar dig som faaan farsan... 😢 . Karl-Gustav 24/4-43 - 21/9-05 Fortsätt att vila i frid farsan 💕 . Din son... ⚘ . #vilaifrid #restinpeace #rip #vif #father #pappa #dad #farsan #pops #myoldman #family #familj #lafamilia #september #saknad #itneverstopshurting #love #Kärlek #life #oldhunk #thebaldguy #freakshow #oldschool #beast #nuffsaid
🍅🍅Thinking🍅🍅 #shutouttheworld #pensketch #insideyourself #thinkingofyou #remembering #mythoughts #eyeswideshut #onlyicansee #delete #alwaysthere #itneverstopshurting #relentless #isolation #oxfordshireartweeks
15 years in Heaven for this angel right here! Pictured here is a moment burned in my memory that was shared at my bridal shower. My mom spoke words of wisdom from her heart about love and marriage. She always loved Jon and shared here that she was so happy that I found one of the good ones! 💕 Mom we miss you and can’t believe it’s been 15 years. Feels like yesterday 💔 Keep watching over us and guiding us from above! @_caseybones_ @candace.marie22 @_james_dillon @pankoooow #ItNeverStopsHurting #MothersLove #GuardianAngel
This picture brings back such lovely memories of our trip to Napa. It was the last day and our final private wine tasting. My father has by that stage had enough of wine and really just wanted an American beer but my Mother says..”Johnaki, drink it .....it is Opus One Darling!!” She bought me two bottles that I cannot bring myself to drink..... but when I do I will toast to you my beautiful, loving and wonderful Mummy. #happybirthday #happybirthdaymummy #missyousomuch #itneverstopshurting #rememberingthesedays #napavalley #opusonewinery
I will always fight for you dad.. even though you are stubborn as hell sometimes! You have always been there for me no matter what and I've always had you to call and talk to.... about anything!!!! I wont give up fighting for you because your life matters to me more then anything in this world right now. I never thought I'd have to go through this but were going through it together 💪 it will only make us stronger. We love you and everything is gonna be okay. I'm sure that guitar has been calling your name and you're going to start playing again.. there is no rocking roll doctor like you! We are gonna jam out again soon. That day is coming soon I swear🎗❤ #cancersucks #loveyoudaddy❤️ #oldphoto #family #blessedtohaveyou #wewillbeok #yougotthis #foreverfighting #cancer #itneverstopshurting
Bittersweet memories circa 2002. My first trip to LA Chinatown. Some people leave your life but you never saw it coming. Always lessons to learn & good memories to smile about in reflection. . . . #reflection #throwback #2002 #chinatownlosangeles #itneverstopshurting #goodtimes #rememberingthegood #lifechangingtimes
Some moments, this is all I have to say. Dear God. It hurts. Help. Hoping with you for help. #mybellahope #beautifulhope #havehope #silenceofpain #chronicpain #painchampion #hopeandbeautyadvocate #Godismysource #ithurts #itneverstopshurting #checkmeintotheER #Godhavemercy
This is so simply put but I will never find the words to fully explain how much I miss him....My Dad was the most amazing man I knew...he was the best dad I could of asked for and I feel empty without him here....today is 6 years since he left us, it feels like it's been forever....and it hasn't gotten easier....the hurt is still as painful as the day he was taken....I've just learnt how to cope with it!!! And I'm still standing and moving forward like he taught me too...I love you pops....you will always be spoken of so highly, the memories will always bring a smile and there will always be so much love for you....I am proud to be your baby girl!! I hope you're resting well and causing mischief wherever you are 💕
I see you. I've seen you in so many things today! I swear I even smelled you once. Weird, I know😊. And I see you every day in little things and mainly in my beautiful daughter who I'm still sure you hand picked just for me. Attitude and all😁. I love you and I miss you like crazy! I would say I wish I could tell you I love you just one more time but I know you hear me every time I say it. Happy birthday Aunt Pam. Keep watching over me and never stop sending me your little signs. #itneverstopshurting #butthememoriesgetsweeter
Seven years ago I married the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. Three years later we buried his ashes. Miss him so much #KB #treasurethetimeyouhavetogether 🌈 #itneverstopshurting love you so much💕
Roxy 🌈 1 year ago today I had to let you go 💔 only 7 months after your diagnosis, your kidneys completely failed. I learned so much from you in the brief 6 years you were with us. I really learned patience and acceptance. You were reactive and fearful and developed crippling separation anxiety. You were fearless, though, in your devotion to me, and would have protected me from anyone! I gave up my social life to be with you, and have no regrets. We took care of each other ❤️❤️ and I understood you. You made me laugh so hard the way you played with that red ball! How you would drop it at my feet so I would kick it across the patio for you over and over and over. I’ll never know how your first two years were, before we adopted you from @lbanimalcare, except that you’d had puppies, were found after you’d been hit by a car, and the only way animal control officers could get to you was to give you Cheetos! You were sweet and smart and silly and happy and a couch potato at home. We found quiet parks where we had great adventures 🐾🐾🐾🐾 and you walked so nicely with a gentle leader. Inevitably, we’d run across someone who’s dogs were off leash and our outing would end. At my birthday in 2017 I found out you were sick. It was hard to believe because you had so much energy and looked great! But as time passed you rapidly declined, and we spent the holidays in and out of the animal emergency hospital. You were so weak and wouldn’t eat. I took you off all your meds and your mood and appetite improved. I made your food and you regained your strength and your glossy thick coat came back! For three months I almost forgot that you were dying, then you became so sick again. I was with you as the vet helped you comfortably pass, and I went home with a heavy heart. And it was very quiet. I miss you, my Roxy girl ❤️ you were, in many ways, the best dog I ever had 😘🐶 ❤️ #runningfree #rainbowbridge #missyou #youwereloved #myhearthurts #hospicedog #youneverforget #theyareallunique #itneverstopshurting #adoptdontshop #banfieldpethospital #vcaanimalhospital #kidneydiseasesucks #iletyougo #thebroken #profoundlysad #illseeyouagain
Nope, nothing. #itneverstopshurting #stillcantbreath
#5 #inkaddict #tattoo #loveyou #missyoulove #itneverstopshurting #allwaysinmyheart
He left 98 days ago. My chest stays tight and tears right at the edge of falling. always. . Someday the pain will subside some. . #gratefulforallhisdays #itneverstopshurting #imisshim #pawsonmyheart
Happy 12th Birthday to my sweet girl. I only knew you for 3 days but I think about you every day. I love you so much. #nilmdts #preemie #sadmomma #happybirthday #micropreemie #itneverstopshurting #heartbroken
Not only was my mama on my mind tonight, but also my baby boys. He’s at a bday party and doing this. God I miss her so bad. #itneverstopshurting #jonajr
#chicagocubs #nextyear #leftmeatonthebone #itneverstopshurting #loveablelosers #mlbpostseason #mlb #nlwc2018
I miss you ..i need you... i don't know what I'm doing here without you.. #imnothing #myperson #shouldvebeenmeinstead #theylied #itneverstopshurting #howdareyouimissyou #cancersucks
Some food for thought. Please, please.....stop telling me to be thankful for what I have. You have no idea how thankful I am. But, that doesn't mean I can't want another child. That doesn't mean my heart can't hurt. Today, I was comforted with the fact a million butterflies were around me ALL day. They just kept flying around me 🦋 #pain #oneyeartoday #itneverstopshurting #donttellmetoforget #ineverwill #flybaby #butterfly #peaceful #gorgeous #somepeoplejustdontgetit #momof4 #fitmom #fitness #gym #gymshark #gymrat #fitfam #gymgoer #happiness #words #imstrong #illbeokay#
happy birthday grandma❤️ siempre seguirás siendo mi reina 👑 #iloveyou #missyoueveryday #youllalwaysbemyqueen #itneverstopshurting
